I have read, been taught, prayed, seen film depictions of, and heard about the atonement, the crucifixion and the resurrection of Jesus Christ all my life. I thought I knew. I thought I had some idea of what it would have been like for the Savior as I pondered the scriptures and the lessons taught in primary, young women's, institute, and in my other church meetings. All of that changed when I listened to Jeffrey R. Holland's talk given last Easter. I don't believe that I have ever been so moved, so utterly and completely touched, by words in my whole life. We, all of us, are so incredibly and amazingly blessed. I only have '5 followers'. I don't have a blog to "change the world" ... or any noble purpose, but I do hope that someone, somewhere, will hear this message and be blessed by it as I have.
I love the Savior. Love does not even seem like enough when I think of the Savior and all he has done for us. I forget to say my prayers. I almost never read my scriptures. I attend the temple only a few times a year. I get relieved sometimes when a vacation overlaps a Sunday so that I can have a week off from my calling at church. How horrible is that? I am not worthy. I don't think I ever will feel worthy. I want to be better... I need to be better. But in all my faults... I do have one thing: I know, I know from the very depth of my soul that Jesus Christ lives! I know that He suffered more than anyone can suffer and that he ultimately gave his life for us. For me. I am not worthy, but through Him I can become the woman I want to be.
I am so grateful that even though I have too many imperfections to count I have always been solid and unwavering in one thing: my testimony of the gospel of Jesus Christ. How wonderful and merciful the plan of salvation is. How truly blessed we are to know that we will be with our families forever. That because of Christ's birth, atonement, death, and resurrection we may all return to him and our Heavenly Father.
Happy Easter!
